Stepping outside my world to find myself...
Here’s an anonymous quote that I’ve read several times over the years;
“Sometimes you need to step outside, clear your head and remind yourself of who you are. And where you wanna be. And sometimes you have to venture outside your world in order to find yourself”.
I’ve been busy the last few months with several non-musical projects that took a lot of research and time. They were by choice and, although creative, quite technical in nature.
Gradually, I reduced the amount of time I spent on my music until I just stopped. I confess, I’m now challenged with changing hats and once again returning to the keys, whether strictly for pleasure or leading to recording a new CD, which has been on the back burner for a while. I have a lot of original material but, for the first time, I'm struggling with deciding if the message is still authentic, or have I moved on?
So, taking my lead from the above quote, I decided to step away for a month, spend more time outdoors with my boy, Gaetano, in this beautiful Jersey fall, avoid excessive computer use and take a drawing class with a talented friend of mine, Mary Jean Canziani (I wrote about her in an earlier email). I don't possess that talent. My stick figures don't even resemble humans, but I’m “stepping outside, clearing my head and reminding myself of who I am and who I wanna be”.
Stepping outside without judgement or expectations, simply for the journey. That’s a freedom I rarely afford myself.
I’ll let you know how it goes.
Anybody relate to this odd dilemma?